Twisted Kingdoms

It's annoying how nearly a month went by before I started picking the unholy shit out of the growth on my head that barely qualifies as hair. I can guess the increased stress, frustration and anxiety are definitely a part of it, with work being an unholy pain and all.

But why didn't I go after it before and I am now? PMS/Period probably has to do with that, methinks. Blegh.

I need to make it through the month- that way I can bleach it in May and see if it's long enough for a qualified hairdresser to get the extensions put in. That way I know I can't fuck with it afterwards. I just have to talk to my sister/Mom's hairdresser and see if she knows of anyone who could do it and what her prices would be.

...sitting in a chair for 5 hours will be the bitch though, while I get them put in. I know they're supposed to be damaging to the hair, but if they'll last me through to August/September where I'll only have to go in and get my roots bleached? I'll be fine. (I'm apparently being a tow head like in the old days. Go me! It will set off m'green eyes though.)

And if they can last me long enough so that I can grow my hair out to the point I can't pull it? I'll be fine. Because pulling at a certain point genuinely registers as pain and not the nice relieving kind either.

It'll probably not be until June for the extensions, but I can at least get the inch/inch and a half bleached before then, have a bit of growth and then go in to have 'em bleach the roots and put in said extensions to match it. With any luck, the extensions will be decent and the whole thing won't cost more than about $700-800 dollars. ...still a lot but, it'll be worth it.

I will try and post pics, if I can get it done. I already know when I get them put in, I'm going to hand Dad the brush and have him give me the first ponytail I'll have had in 13 years.

It's hard. But I'm going to pray for some kind of help here, and look for where my extra stash of willpower is hiding, that way I can use 'em both to quit picking more than I have and grow, grow grow!

Anxiety from the tsunami's still there, more centric on the whole potential nuclear disaster that should have people going, "Awww shit" more than they are already. Nuclear stuff isn't my forte or area of expertise, but radiation+potential for a meltdown = very bad news. I'm smart enough to grasp those basics. Now I'm just sad, shaking my head at the death toll and of the level of destruction Mother Nature can cause.

It takes humanity around 10+ years to get a decent sized village or city fully up and running. Mother Nature can take it out, as we've seen, in a matter of minutes. I'm kind of glad humanity can't harness that type of power, we have too many who'd abuse it, sadly.

Due to being a bad girl and not doing my friday log, I'll just post a bit about it here and move on.

( Friday Events )

Saturday found me waking early so I could get my check cashed and such before everything closed.

( Nice lengthy and rambly Saturday log ) 

Highlight of the day was purchasing Pokemon Black. Yes, I'm 23 (nearly) going on 35 going on 10. Bite me, I still enjoy my silly little children's video game with the adorable creatures you stuff into little balls and collect like coins. Tonight's bedtime story is totally going to be about Amara (name of my trainer) and her silly before-the-Professor-showed-up adventures trying to mediate between the massively unresolved UST between her smarty-pants know-it-all and rather critical personality friend, Cheren and the delightfully sweet, but bubblebrained and not terribly smart girl who tries very hard named Bianca. The three of them have known each other a minimum of 10 years by the time we're clued into their adventures and it's amusing to pick up little clues and play with them. Poor Amara, I have a feeling Bianca gets them into a lot of trouble that Cheren ends up yelling at her for and that Amara ends up having to soothe hurt feelings and take responsibility for getting them out of trouble a lot. *laugh*

Still need to pick up my copy of Twilight's Dawn by Anne Bishop so I complete my series collection. Stupid brain, can't have just all but one of the books, gotta have'em all. How this doesn't apply to video games is beyond me; I'm not a total completionist like a lot of people I know.

Also; whoever decided Daylight Savings Time was a good idea needs a swift kick in the unmentionables... and the kneecaps, just for good measure. I liked that extra hour, thank you!

x-posted to other journal.

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